I’m so sick. So very, very ill….
I’m so sick. So very, very ill. I had to leave early today. Now that’s taking away from my overtime and I didn’t really want to do that… but I couldn’t exactly STAND….. or TALK. Two essencials in retail sales.
I’m not getting the amount of entries as I hoped. What’s going on? This contest is open to anyone and you can win stuff really easily… and it’s this week only.
There’s a girl I used to talk to… before I left for vacation. I even talked to her on the phone a few times while I was ON vacation. She actually lives in the same little town I do and we got along pretty well. She wasn’t interested in a relationship and that was ok, because she seemed cool enough to just hang out with. We did have dinner once… and it seemed to go well.
Anyway… Since I got back home, she’s been ignoring me. Blatently. No messages are returned and I can tell she stays on “invisible” on Yahoo messenger. After a couple weeks, I finally accepted the fact that she was indeed ignoring me for no reason. So I left her a message stating that it’s not a good idea to ignore someone who you live in the same town with. I mean, what if we ran into eachother somewhere? Wouldn’t that be the most awkward thing? I simply asked that if she doesn’t want to talk to me then to tell me and that would be that. A reason would be lovely, but at least tell me to go away or something.
Apparently, she didn’t agree, since she didn’t repond to that one either. So I left another one stating that she can roam non-invisibly and I won’t bother her. SO SHE IS!
I want to tell her to grow up. I mean, she’s 25 for christ’s sake! Just be honest! I am fighting the urge to make a personal attack like that, but really…. shouldn’t someone tell her?
I know there are a few people out there who are feeling similar to the way I am… with me. There are a few people who I have been ignoring but, at least I try to explain myself to them — and I have tried. To explain further, I would like to say to them that I don’t know why, exactly. Something is telling me to stay away. These people I am referring to have a tendancy to speak to me in a way where I feel like I am the end-all and be-all to them. It scares me, I guess. They don’t mean any harm. I know this. But I suppose since I do not feel the same, that I should run away and not hurt them. I realize, that doing what I am doing is hurting them more. So then I paint myself into a corner and I just don’t know what to say, because I can’t explain it well.
One should appreciate someone’s appreciation for them… yet, it just makes me want to run away when it becomes a slightly extreme appreciation for me. This of course does NOT hold true if I appreciate them just as much. Why do I not appreciate them as much?? I will never know. Just the way life goes, I guess.